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realmscryer) wrote2021-08-05 05:26 pm
realmscryer) wrote2021-08-05 05:26 pm
Solitude
For the last few months my tarot readings have been telling me in no uncertain terms to embrace solitude. As someone with a kid still in the house, a new puppy, and a wife working full time at home (I keep the tech side running for her) finding solitude looked like it was going to be a bit of a challenge.
As I considered and accepted the message from the cards something curious happened. Instead of needing to head out to a cabin in the woods or a remote stretch of coast I found solitude right here in my own head. At least, a sort of solitude. While a remote beach would definitely been wonderful doing some inner and out housecleaning appears to have been sufficient.
What worked to clean my inner house?
Getting very clear on what has worked an not worked in this incarnation for one. Staying on the fringe of society because it is the only place I can tolerate. I have demonstrated a distinct inability to spend 8 hours a day in a cubicle, for example. No matter how effective I am at my job or how much money I am making I just can't do it. Not that I ever made a ton money though didn't do too bad.
Politics and meaningless work are the killers after the cubicle. I mean I made some doctors a butt ton of money with my database skills but do I care even a little? Especially given the lack of profit sharing and having to punch a clock in a cubicle? Just can't do it.
Given I am a malcontent relative to society now what? What can I offer to the world outside myself? What am I willing to have and not have in exchange?
While getting groceries today I saw the store was hiring for a wine something or other. That might be cool. Other than something like that then what?
Firmly planted on the fringe I noticed my attempts to share my explorations with the outside world via blogging were often rather jointed definitely lacking continuity and disjointed. Where did this come from?
Being a solitary intuitive explorer for so many years is the main culprit. Forty years of spirit guided curriculum really does not lend itself well to spontaneous sharing.
Now, as I work through the Dolmen Arch the gaps in my training are filling and I am assembling a more structured view of magic. This structure is helping me conceptualize and hopefully communicate hopefully in a way some find helpful.
So ... as part of my seeking solitude initiative I deleted all my blog posts on my main blog. Refocused with a clean slate, druidmagick.com is a place I will now explore and share themes of interest instead of mostly spontaneous experiences and insights as I did previously.
Ditching, as I continue, any profit oriented expectations is another important shift. While not opposed to making money I do find expecting money will be made off my blogging shifts my mind into evaluating if a given project is a waste of time or not. Which leads to inaction as everything turns into a waste of time in the short run. Where is my reader in this thought process? Lost in the forest of dollar signs just out of reach.
Getting back to solitude. The simplifying and clarifying in conjunction with my meditations appears to have had a similar effect as going to the isolated beach or embarking on a solo sailboat trip in the San Juan Islands. Clearing and sorting mind stuff can happen anywhere. Allowing time for processes to be organized and meditating on the writing process is key. Physically getting away can certainly make that easier. But there are other options if you can't get away.
As I considered and accepted the message from the cards something curious happened. Instead of needing to head out to a cabin in the woods or a remote stretch of coast I found solitude right here in my own head. At least, a sort of solitude. While a remote beach would definitely been wonderful doing some inner and out housecleaning appears to have been sufficient.
What worked to clean my inner house?
Getting very clear on what has worked an not worked in this incarnation for one. Staying on the fringe of society because it is the only place I can tolerate. I have demonstrated a distinct inability to spend 8 hours a day in a cubicle, for example. No matter how effective I am at my job or how much money I am making I just can't do it. Not that I ever made a ton money though didn't do too bad.
Politics and meaningless work are the killers after the cubicle. I mean I made some doctors a butt ton of money with my database skills but do I care even a little? Especially given the lack of profit sharing and having to punch a clock in a cubicle? Just can't do it.
Given I am a malcontent relative to society now what? What can I offer to the world outside myself? What am I willing to have and not have in exchange?
While getting groceries today I saw the store was hiring for a wine something or other. That might be cool. Other than something like that then what?
Firmly planted on the fringe I noticed my attempts to share my explorations with the outside world via blogging were often rather jointed definitely lacking continuity and disjointed. Where did this come from?
Being a solitary intuitive explorer for so many years is the main culprit. Forty years of spirit guided curriculum really does not lend itself well to spontaneous sharing.
Now, as I work through the Dolmen Arch the gaps in my training are filling and I am assembling a more structured view of magic. This structure is helping me conceptualize and hopefully communicate hopefully in a way some find helpful.
So ... as part of my seeking solitude initiative I deleted all my blog posts on my main blog. Refocused with a clean slate, druidmagick.com is a place I will now explore and share themes of interest instead of mostly spontaneous experiences and insights as I did previously.
Ditching, as I continue, any profit oriented expectations is another important shift. While not opposed to making money I do find expecting money will be made off my blogging shifts my mind into evaluating if a given project is a waste of time or not. Which leads to inaction as everything turns into a waste of time in the short run. Where is my reader in this thought process? Lost in the forest of dollar signs just out of reach.
Getting back to solitude. The simplifying and clarifying in conjunction with my meditations appears to have had a similar effect as going to the isolated beach or embarking on a solo sailboat trip in the San Juan Islands. Clearing and sorting mind stuff can happen anywhere. Allowing time for processes to be organized and meditating on the writing process is key. Physically getting away can certainly make that easier. But there are other options if you can't get away.